N is for No Problem

In my last post, I talked about meetings and how valuable they are to me. There’s one I like to stop at on my way home from work that I haven’t been able to get to because my work schedule has been too hectic and I miss it terribly. Now that things are calming down again, I’m hoping to pop in there next week.

One of the great things about AA are the slogans. They have a ton that are official and many more that aren’t like this gem:

The difference between a problem drinker and an alcoholic is that

A)         When alcohol is taken away from the problem drinker, the problem goes away.

B)         When alcohol is taken away from the alcoholic, the problem begins.

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M is for Meetings

I remember when the only meetings I attended were those required by my employers. Ugh. Although one company I worked for had a breakfast meeting and each division was assigned to cook breakfast on a rotating basis. That was pretty awesome. Unless it was my week to cook. I digress. This post is about meetings, not breakfast. Although you guys know how much I love my Entenmann’s.

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L is for Lying

L is for Lying

One of my favorite genres of movies and television is comedy. While many people aren’t fans of Jim Carrey, I am. Well, I’m a fan of some of his movies. Not all of them. One of his movies I enjoyed was Liar, Liar. Maybe it was because of some of the lies I was told growing up. Maybe it was because I’d become such a liar myself during my addiction.

Or on reflection, maybe it’s because it’s what caused me the most damage while Devin was in the grips of his addiction. Even while he was navigating his way through recovery, lying was one of the hardest habits for him to break. Maybe it was one of mine too. I would have loved for him to be just like Jim Carrey and not be able to tell a lie, but that wasn’t possible. Or realistic. But it sure would’ve been cool.

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K is for Knowledge

K is for Knowledge

Are any of you old enough to remember the PSAs, “The More You Know?” Just pretend that you are, please. Thank you. I feel better. Actually, I grew up with, “Now you know, and knowing is half the battle.” Go, Joe! Maybe some of you are even old enough to remember those cartoons?

The point GI Joe was making back then was that knowledge is power. And despite the hundreds of memes that there have been about my buddy, Joe, it’s true, being informed is great. But too much knowledge can also be harmful. At least it was for me.

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J is for Justification

J is for Justification

“Do you have a minute?” The acid in my stomach churned and rolled after I asked Devin the question. I wished I could take it back. Maybe I’ll ask him about something else instead. No! A voice cried out in my head. Not again. Every time you try to ask him, you back down. Not this time!

His eyes didn’t leave the screen. His tone was flat. Dead. “What?”

I couldn’t help but try to see what other tabs were open on the screen. He’d been getting careless lately. I grabbed the second office chair hoping it would prompt him to look at me. It didn’t. “I, um, wanted to talk to you about the uh,” I left it unsaid. Maybe he’d fill in the blank?

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