What started as, “I need to get high so I can release some stress” or “I need to get high so I can avoid these feelings” has now become “I need to get high because I don’t know how to manage my stress or these emotions unless I do.”Read More
♫ Slip sliding away…slip sliding away. ♫ Do you have that song by Paul Simon in your head too? Sorry about that. As an addict, I use the words setback and slip interchangeably although I understand and respect not everyone is fond of the word slip. To me, a slip is like when you slip on the ice. You don’t quite fall down on the ground. You try to catch yourself before you do. At least you hope you do. If not, then you have a huge knot on your head to remind you why you’re supposed to be more cautious while treading in dangerous territory.Read More
In my last post, I talked about meetings and how valuable they are to me. There’s one I like to stop at on my way home from work that I haven’t been able to get to because my work schedule has been too hectic and I miss it terribly. Now that things are calming down again, I’m hoping to pop in there next week.
One of the great things about AA are the slogans. They have a ton that are official and many more that aren’t like this gem:
The difference between a problem drinker and an alcoholic is that
A) When alcohol is taken away from the problem drinker, the problem goes away.
B) When alcohol is taken away from the alcoholic, the problem begins.Read More
I remember when the only meetings I attended were those required by my employers. Ugh. Although one company I worked for had a breakfast meeting and each division was assigned to cook breakfast on a rotating basis. That was pretty awesome. Unless it was my week to cook. I digress. This post is about meetings, not breakfast. Although you guys know how much I love my Entenmann’s.Read More
One of my favorite genres of movies and television is comedy. While many people aren’t fans of Jim Carrey, I am. Well, I’m a fan of some of his movies. Not all of them. One of his movies I enjoyed was Liar, Liar. Maybe it was because of some of the lies I was told growing up. Maybe it was because I’d become such a liar myself during my addiction.
Or on reflection, maybe it’s because it’s what caused me the most damage while Devin was in the grips of his addiction. Even while he was navigating his way through recovery, lying was one of the hardest habits for him to break. Maybe it was one of mine too. I would have loved for him to be just like Jim Carrey and not be able to tell a lie, but that wasn’t possible. Or realistic. But it sure would’ve been cool.Read More