F is FOO

Don’t worry, you read that right. It says FOO, not FOOD. Although now I could go for some food. Hang on, let me grab a Krispy Kreme doughnut real quick. Delicious! If you have a Krispy Kreme near you, do yourself a favor and get one today. You deserve it! Also, I’d appreciate if you didn’t tell my hometown fav Entenmann's that I’m currently eating Krispy Kreme. Told you I flipped-flopped.

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Shame and Addiction

Shame is a powerful emotion. Many addicts carry shame. I know I did and so did Devin. Shame is quite different than guilt. With guilt, you have the ability to process, evaluate, learn, and make changes without beating yourself up over and over again. Shame, well that’s a whole different beast. Shame makes you feel less than. It’s that voice inside our head that says, “I’m not good enough,” and “I’m not worthy enough” and “I’ll never get better so why bother trying.” It has a way of shining a bright light on our flaws, whether they are real or imagined.

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Virtual Reality...In Rehab?

I love me some Dr. Phil. Say what you want about the guy, the man tells it like it is and for someone like me, (stubborn and bullheaded) that’s the kind of counselor I need when it comes to my sobriety and healing. Don't beat around the bush about my drug addiction and my betrayal trauma, doc. It’s probably why I tend to lean towards the blunt side when it comes to Devin and his sobriety too.

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