They say that March roars in like a lion and as I write this, it is really roaring out there. Winds gusting outside my window have caused power outages in my area and the gazebo over my grill to topple over. Thank goodness my hubby is handy and was able to anchor it down before the next big storm blows through.
The first Wednesday in March also means the Insecure Writer’s Support Group! Woot Woot! This month I’m not insecure; I’m indecisive. I flip-flop on some things: Oui yogurt or Siggi’s? bai or Vitamin Water? Entenmann’s or Hostess? If you’re keeping track: Oui, bai, and Entenmann’s. Of course, Entenmann’s usually wins since I lived so close to the factory on Long Island. Hello half-off Wednesdays! Usually, though the things I’m wishy-washy about are the foofy things in life. In the grand scheme of things, if I want to switch back to Hostess so I can treat myself to a couple of Snowballs, who cares? But on the bigger choices in life, well, those things I tend to do a better job arriving at a decision.
The indecisiveness stems from fear. The post I did last week was a snippet from my upcoming self-help book. The smart thing would’ve been promoting it, right? Share a link to my post on Facebook or Twitter to my dozen followers, and just as I was about to, I promise I was…I had the draft on Facebook all set to go…I clicked close. I was too scared. Of what I’m not sure, I just was. I need to start facing my fears again.
I can’t decide if I'm ready to fully commit to begin putting myself out there or stay here in the safety of Squarespace. I even created a new Blogger page the other day in preparation for the book release (which won’t be out for until the end of the year at least), and then I talked myself out of doing anything with it. Because really, what am I going to do with yet another Blogger page? I shut down the other one. It’s a great and easy way to be found by other bloggers, but do I want to switch blogs again? No. I like this one. It’s really my personality. I didn’t have that on Blogger. The only problem I’m having on here is people’s frustration to comment. Do I change back to Disquis? Oh, look, another flip-flop. Shocking!
I’m a huge fan of flip-flops, but only when they’re worn in the summer, not when I’m the one being so wishy-washy. I know that in the coming weeks and months I will figure out what I want to do. Or more likely, I will wake up one morning and think, “You know what, I’m going to switch over to Disquis again! Or Blogger again! What a fantastic idea!” Only to regret it a month later.
Have you ever been indecisive? How did you come to a decision? Have any words of advice? I’m all ears.
This is a post for the Insecure Writer's Support Group. Its purpose is to share and encourage. Writers can express doubts and concerns without fear of appearing foolish or weak. Those who have been through the fire can offer assistance and guidance. It’s a safe haven for insecure writers of all kinds! A big thank you to Alex Cavanaugh for making all of this possible. You rock!