Have you ever heard your voice and thought, “Oh my gosh, that’s what I sound like? Ugh!” Me too. Since I’m over-the-hill, I don’t cringe the way I used to. Until now.
I started recording my podcast back in the beginning of February. Countless times, I attempted to record, listen, and then post my first episode. I couldn’t do it. Not for an entire month. I’d record it, listen, and then hit delete.
While I’d love to blame it on the fact that you can hear my giant dog barking in the background (and that I had to record an episode in the bathroom because of him!), followed by the not so giant dog chiming in, that wasn’t why I didn’t hit submit.
I also tried to tell myself that it was the enormous amount of “ums” and “And so’s” and sometimes dead air, or my rambling off topic (who me ramble?) but that wasn’t it either.
It was…drum roll please… FEAR. Looking around, I see no one is surprised. Me either. Fear is an old friend of mine. I knew I’d eventually look her in the eyes and say, “Today, I’m hitting that button and BAM! My podcast will be known by all!” Or at least available to all. On March 8, 2019, I finally hit publish without deleting it. Not gonna lie, there is a small part of me that wants to delete this post and go back in hiding. I won’t though. I put my brave pants on again today.
In reality, it’s among the sea of a kabillion other podcasts with hosts who have a lot more experience than I do. One’s who don’t have barking dogs, verbal quirks, or thoughts that take them down long winding paths to absolutely nowhere. People who have themes, structures, schedules, guests. You know, professionals.
My podcast is very much like me. Relaxed, hyper, focused, squirrel! Truly though, it’s come as you are – addict, loved one of an addict, curious about addicts and addiction and what it’s like to have bouts of depression or go through abuse - because I’ve decided it’s time to open up about that too – but most importantly, it’s a place of hope and positivity. And laughter. My humor is what helped get me to where I am today.
I’d like to thank Ivy from Happy Whisk. She was the one who turned me on to Anchor. What an easy platform to use. I think. I’m still learning. I mean, I had this scheduled to post the first week in June but had to change it because somehow I deleted almost all of my recordings. Work in progress, folks. Work in progress.
I hope you’ll to join me:
Elsie’s Corner: Hope From Addiction
I’ll be working on both my blog and the podcast so I’m not quite sure how scheduling will be just yet but there are a few episodes of varying lengths to (hopefully) keep you entertained. I welcome feedback!
Do you listen to podcasts? Have a favorite? Any topic you’d like me to discuss? (You can email me directly if you’d like to stay anonymous).
NOTE: I’m working this morning so I’ll be visiting everyone this afternoon.