Even After All These Years...The Addict Voice

I lowered my head to the mirror, stuck the short, metal tube up my nose, and inhaled deeply. The cocaine coursed through my veins. The laughter around me amplified. The music blaring through the speakers became crystal clear. Each note singular and beautiful. I felt the hair on my arms sway ever so slightly as the vent above me whispered down cool air.

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What Does it Mean to Detach? Guest Post by Author Annie Highwater

Today, I'm excited to host, author Annie Highwater. Her latest book, Unbroken, came out the other day. I was lucky enough to get a pre-release copy of the book before it hit the shelves. What I found most inspiring about Unbroken is the theme of hope and optimism that continually weaves its way throughout the book despite the tough topics it tackles.

We swapped a few emails and one of the things she said, I really wanted to share here (with her permission of course), because it speaks to that hope even while we're in the midst of trying to detach with love.

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L is for Lying

L is for Lying

One of my favorite genres of movies and television is comedy. While many people aren’t fans of Jim Carrey, I am. Well, I’m a fan of some of his movies. Not all of them. One of his movies I enjoyed was Liar, Liar. Maybe it was because of some of the lies I was told growing up. Maybe it was because I’d become such a liar myself during my addiction.

Or on reflection, maybe it’s because it’s what caused me the most damage while Devin was in the grips of his addiction. Even while he was navigating his way through recovery, lying was one of the hardest habits for him to break. Maybe it was one of mine too. I would have loved for him to be just like Jim Carrey and not be able to tell a lie, but that wasn’t possible. Or realistic. But it sure would’ve been cool.

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D is for Denial & Disclosure

Day four of the Challenge and we’re still rockin’ and rollin’! Let’s do this, party people! Today’s topic is bittersweet for me. I decided to make “D” both Denial and Disclosure because when you go through disclosure, there ain’t no more denying there’s a problem. Had it not been for disclosure, I wouldn't be where I am today, so as painful as it was, I'm grateful it happened. That wasn't always the case though.

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